Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Book Ends




The aisles could have chosen to be more depressing but they decided to show me an amount of mercy. They stood familiar, consistent; however a change could be felt. It was there in the carpet, slowing me. It could have been that my feet were savoring each step, knowing that they would not have this opportunity very long. It could have also been that the very fibers of the fabric where reaching out, begging for me to stay, begging for me to do something. Even if I wanted to move faster, even to escape, it would not have been possible with the melancholy that beset me. This grave feeling was also resting heavily on the shelves. They bowed despite being lighter than before. They were diminished, their burden lightened, and it was the sadness of this sight that cut me to the core. The cancer that had been eating away at this mall had befallen my bookstore. Its end was near and feeling of death was profound.

I trudged through the aisles as stoically as possible but there clung to the air a darkness that ravaged me. I could feel it in my brow, furrowed as I looked up at the neon pink and green signs that read “Store Closing-25-50% Off” and “All Sales Final.” My hands were jammed into my pockets as I looked at the titles still available. I knew them all, there was nothing new. I had been here many times before. The search for specifics was long past now. At those times I was looking for something particular I did come here. If they didn’t have it, well, they didn’t have it and you moved on. I know you could always special order books if you wanted them enough, though the internet has ruined that for us long ago.

I couldn’t help but blame myself, but to what accusation must I be held accountable for? I was far from the most loyal patron, purchasing few books throughout the years. I’m a poor stiff, working at slightly above the minimum wage. New books aren’t the cheapest form of entertainment offered. When written out this excuse sounds hollow, distant maybe. Maybe I don’t believe in it enough. But this is what happens when you grieve; you find ways to relieve the pain by any means necessary.

The guilt came from feeling like such a vulture. As I filled my arms with cheap books, an institution was dying around us. The rot was visible but we were too selfish to even see it. Was it that we were making the best out of a bad situation or had we been already circling the air, waiting to pick the bones clean. There’s nothing like a liquidation sale to bring out the inner savage in us all.

One hears of these kinds of things all the time; store closings, job loss, the falling value of our money and we’re somehow naïve enough to think it will never happen to us. When it does, we want to feel special, we want people to notice; more importantly we want pity from others. If you pay close attention to the news nowadays you’d probably conclude the world had burnt in hell long ago. We’re just waiting for the ash to blow away to see the sun long enough to light the way.

It is inevitable, I guess, to see the world shut down around you, especially when you live in a town as small as mine. We live by the ideal here and as great as that sounds it doesn’t make for a pleasant reality. No one really cares for other’s ideals or dreams. We only care to get what’s ours, or what we think is ours, and leave the scraps for the other guy. We want so desperately to be good and to make other’s lives good but we fail to realize how little good there is in the world to build from.

Instead of looking for titles that I wanted to own I looked for old favorites. I checked to see if there was any Rand. I tried to think how many copies of her books I’ve bought for people. I was hurt by the fact that there were still several McCarthy books available. An author like him should be the first to go, or so I thought. I glanced cautiously toward Sci-Fi/Fantasy and wondered why this store never carried any Phillip K. Dick. I even paused at the Japanese Manga realizing there would be none to judge in the first place.

I walked around, absorbing it all. Here was a place filled with memories but even now I have a hard time drawing anything concrete from them. They are mostly shards that connect to a larger whole. As a kid running past here to the toy store, when there still was a toy store. As a teenager spending countless hours between here and the music store. And as an adult finding that the entire establishment became a place to kill time in between other engagements. It used to seem so much larger but now it is so very small.

I must be honest; I was pretty pleased with the collection I had scoured. I held them protectively, excited to have them, excited to add them to my stack when I get home. I was eager to find more pickings that others decided to overlook. It was no surprise that the Classics section was picked clean, more or less. I looked down and found a diminutive copy of Nine Stories by J.D. Salinger. I held it and noted how small it was, that you can say so much in such few words. I flipped it over to look at the price. With the discount it amounted to just a few dollars. I could have bought it and it wouldn’t have made the slightest dent in my wallet. Then I heard the voice of Holden Caulfield as if he stood right behind me. He hurled his insults, calling me a phony. And this was the truth; I was a phony, the biggest one in the building. The only reason I was here was to suck the last life out of something that once brought me pleasure. I was a scavenger, I was cheap, I was a phony and I couldn’t bring myself to add this book to the others. I slowly put it back on the shelf, continuing to look at it, trying to stare it down but I had no resolve.

I took my shame to the counter and made my final purchase. I told the cashier that I didn’t need a bag, I thought they could use it for someone else. I gathered my things and she handed me my receipt, reminding me again that all sales were final. Then she looked straight into my eyes and said, “Thank you.” The way she had said it was different than the way you usually hear it from most cashiers. It seemed gracious, as if I was doing something worthy of thanks; that I helped to salvage an industry from utter ruin. The ship was going down, of that there was no doubt, just that now it would go down slow and without remorse; like dying in your sleep or drowning. Her words became a ghost that haunted me as I went to go. They gave me a feeling of redemption that filled me as I left. I was lighter now though I can’t remember if I smiled. I can’t even remember if I looked back.

*****

A week or so later I was in the mall again and passed by the bookstore. I noticed that the gate shut and the curtain was drawn. I stood close, hoping I could glance inside but this was futile. It all seemed so very far away, like I was looking directly into the past. Like the way you can see a memory in your head but to touch it would be impossible. It’s startling how fast things fade, how quickly we stop talking about them. This store, its day was dead. I hoped that this wouldn’t have to happen anymore here. I decided to move on, both literally and figuratively. I walked away for a second time.


Thank you Stacey, for the editing

Tuesday, August 30, 2011

The Plight of Music Addiction.

The month is just a few days from ending which means a couple of things. First, the summer is basically over. This sucks because the summer rocks. Days are longer, I can drive with my window down without freezing and everything just feels better. Secondly, Amazon will refresh their monthly sale of $5 albums. This is awesome because what could be better than a $5 album other than free one? The RIAA not breathing down your neck is what.

Amazon’s mp3 store is the biggest competitor to the tower in the sky iTunes. When I say the biggest I don’t mean that this is a neck-and-neck race. iTunes is estimated to have up to 70% of market share of all digital downloads. In my opinion, Amazon is far better because they were faster to the game with DRM free music, they undercut Apple’s prices on standard albums by a couple of dollars, but most of all, it’s because of sales like these. At the beginning of every month Amazon will highlight many popular albums in this special where they go for $5 to download. That’s not all. Every day in the mp3 store an album will get cut down to as little as $2.99!

The albums that Amazon chooses do not slouch neither. Occasionally you will find a flop like one of those Gregorian chants comps or something like that but mostly they will be something really will want. This is a great way to find new music because many times the sales tend to feature lesser known or up and coming artists. Because the album is less than a combo meal at Burger King you won't feel much guilt and if it turns out that it’s not that great after all, then you don’t feel that mad either.

I’ve been taking advantage of these deals for several months now. At the first of the month I’ll log on and peruse the pages like a kid in a candy store, bookmarking the albums that strike my fancy so I can purchase them throughout the month. Every day or so I also log on to see if there is any special deal that I can’t live without. I get really excited for this ritual. It’s one of the first things I do when I get online. As you can guess, I am amassing a collection. I already have a large hoard as it is (I will not divulge how many gigs), but day after day, month after month it just gets larger.

You’d think a music fan like myself would be in a world of bliss? No, these gifts are also curses. You see, I am now in a situation where I am acquiring more music than I actually listen to. And I know this is an affront to music fans everywhere. Shouldn’t you be listening to music all the time, they would say. Well no, I happened to have the unfortunate situation of working in a job where I can’t pop my iPod in and go to town on the musical groves therein. I also believe I happen to suffer from a condition known as Diversified Musical Hyper Activity Disorder, or DMHAD for short (not yet recognized by the DSM or other psychological groups). With this condition I might start some new music, but then I have to change the song to something that’s catchy that I know. But soon enough I have to change that song as well. It’s a vicious cycle.

In an act of healing I’ve prepared a list of albums that I’ve purchased in this way that I have either not listened to at all as of yet or not listened to in its entirety, familiarizing myself with all the songs. Believe me, this is terribly embarrassing but making humor is appealing even if it is at my expense. Here it is:

A Tribe Called Quest-The Anthology

The Antlers- Burst Apart

Antonin Devorak-New World Symphony

Avett Brothers-I and Love and You

Battles-Gloss Drop

Beastie Boys-Hot Sauce Committee Part 2

Beastie Boys-Licensed To Ill

Beastie Boys-Paul’s Boutique

Beck-Mellow Gold

Black Star-Mos Def & Talib Kweli Are Black Star

Bon Iver-S/T

Broken Bells-S/T

Cage the Elephant-S/T

Ce Lo Green-The Lady Killer

The Clash-London Calling

Cold Cave-Love Comes Close

Cold War Kids-Mine is Yours

Deerhunter-Halcylon Digest

Eisley-The Valley

Erykah Badu-New Amerykah Part Two: Return Of The Ankh

Explosions In The Sky- Take Care, Take Care, Take Care

Fleet Foxes-Helplessness Blues

Florence + the Machine-Lungs

Foo Fighters-Wasting Light

Grinderman-Grinderman 2

Janelle Monae-The ArchAndroid

Jay Z-The Blueprint

Juassic 5-Quality Control

Kanye West-College Dropout

Kings of Leon-Because of the Times

LCD Soundsystem-Sound of Silver

LCD Soundsystem-This is Happening

Led Zepplin-Houses of the Holy

Lupe Fiasco-Lasers

MGMT-Congragulations

MGMT-Oracular Spectacular

Mogwai-Hardcore Will Never Die, But You Will

Monsters of Folk-S/T

Neutral Milk Hotel-On Avery Island

Ornette Colman-The Shape of Jazz to Come

Queen-Night at the Opera

R.E.M.-Murmur

Ra Ra Riot-The Orchard

She & Him-Volume 2

Spoon-Ga, Ga, Ga, Ga, Ga

Swans-Great Annihilator

Swans-My Father Will Guide Me Up A Rope To The Sky

Temple of the Dog-S/T

Them Crooked Vultures-S/T

The Ting Tings-We Started Nothing

Titus Andronicus-The Monitor

A Tribe Called Quest-The Anthology

Tune Yards- W H O K I L L

TV on the Radio-Nine Types of Light

U2-Boy

The Velvet Underground-The Velvet Underground & Nico

Veruca Salt-Eight Arms To Hold You

Vivian Girls-Everything Goes Wrong

Washed Out-Within and Without

Wye Oak-Civilian

This is in no way a complete list documenting my condition. I’m not counting the scant few albums purchased from iTunes or the many that I’ve gotten from friends. Do I have a problem or would you perform the same in my situation?

This is a testament to my age and the age of our times. I remember when I was much younger the feeling of bringing home a CD. On the drive home I would rip the shrink wrap off and anticipate how good it will sound. I would go through the booklet and read some of the lyrics and scrutinize the liner notes. I would even thoroughly study the Thank You section to see if I could spot any familiar names. And when I got home I would play the heck out of that record. I would listen to it while playing video games, I would listen to it while doing homework. I would know that album.

I remember how exciting it was to find new music back then, too. This is something that I’m a little unsure about, whether I liked newer music more when I was younger or if the music a decade ago was just better. Both arguments work. It did seem like bands from years ago were more creative but now I’m older and a little more set in my ways. Whichever theory is right the fact remains that now it’s easier to find music but in turn I feel saturated with what I think is mediocre sounds. I feel bored.

In this digital age we’ve traded a lot to have instant gratification. There is no anticipation in purchasing new music, it just happens. Word of mouth is no more. We now tweet our discoveries. The personality of music seems to be what’s missing the most. While our entertainment becomes three dimensional, we become 2D and flat. The last remnants of how we used to experience music are in the live music scene. Even this is changing as I can watch Arcade Fire on YouTube perform live in Madison Square Garden and feel my pulse quicken in excitement. It's as if I was already there, but I’m not but this does not bother me.

Don’t get me wrong, I love digital music. I was apprehensive about the whole thing but I became sick at having stacks of CD’s sitting doing little more than collecting dust. We were at this point long before we realized it. We would buy a CD from the store, come home and rip it to our hard drive or iPod and then what would we do with the CD? That’s right, just leave it on the shelf making them nearly useless.

Knowing all of this will not stop me. In a couple of days I will boot up my computer and make a time of seeing what is on sale, oooh’ing and ahhh’ing over certain selections while making plans for monthly purchases. Maybe this is the one last anticipation that is left to me: instant music for cheap.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

The Film Lovers Summer

Summer entertainment has always baffled me. Why does a special season need to come around in order for you to find enjoyment in a particular type of media? How to we figure that because it is hot we want to see nothing but explosions apart from that fire equals heat? When autumn arrives do we suddenly get serious and thoughtful? Books are the worst to be affected by this because the obligatory “summer reading lists” are vague and indefinable as to make them ridiculous outright. I’ve seen the likes of the Twilight books and Jennifer Weiner on these lists as well as The Pale King by David Foster Wallace which is a novel so sprawling and obtuse as there ever could be. Whatever.

A lot of people, from critics, news writers and common movie goers like to make a big deal about the summer movie season. This is in large part, in my opinion, due to nostalgia. We all like to think back to Depression era tales of people congregating in theaters to escape the heat and their miserable lives. In this depression we can no longer do that. Well, we can escape the heat but movies have become so damn expensive that I find myself rarely going at all. I have to escape my miserable life through other means.

Critics like to talk about summer movies but fairly recently it is just to complain about them.With all the sequels, prequels, reboots and the endless superhero movies there is enough fodder to rant from now until then end of the world (Dec. 21, 2012). But I believe that this season has some of the best movies of any summer as well as the best films of the year. This is the film lover’s summer!

I haven’t seen many films this year but there have been two that have gone outright above the call of duty making the season more than worth it. These are Midnight In Paris and The Tree Of Life. I was so impressed with the overall quality of the pair that I know (or hope really, really hard) that Oscar fame will be in the cards.

Midnight In Pairs is the forty-fifth film written and directed by Woody Allen. It tells the story of Gil Pender (Owen Wilson), a self-described “Hollywood hack” who has made it this far by writing run of the mill movie scripts. He is on vacation in Paris with his fiancée (the always ravishing Rachel McAdams) and her parents, his future in-laws (Kurt Fuller and Mimi Kennedy). While there he is trying to find inspiration for the novel that he is writing about a man that runs a nostalgia shop. Gil is head over heels infatuated with Paris because it is Paris where all the great artists lived or visited. Inez, Gil’s fiancée, does not share his view. If Gil is a romantic, Inez is a realist, a Southern-California bred realist. Her distaste for the country is exhibited in nearly every scene she’s in. She thinks that Paris is dirty and she’d rather go shopping than take a stroll through the Parisian streets.

Gil and Inez soon run into Paul (Michael Sheen), a professor that Inez had many years ago. Inez unabashedly confesses that she once had a major crush on him in college. Gil unexpectedly takes an immediate dislike to Paul, calling to him a “Pseudo-intellectual,” which he is, as he makes a show out of knowing fine details but when it comes right down to it, who cares? Gil, Inez, Paul and Paul’s girlfriend (Nina Arianda) go on a tour of Paris where Paul pedantically elaborates ad nauseam about the cultural landscape. At one time he goes as far as correcting a tour guide regarding who was the mistress of Rodan exactly.

Later in the evening, after turning down an invitation to go dancing with the group, Gil takes a much pined for stroll through Paris and finds himself lost and unable to find the hotel where he is staying. After a couple of unsuccessful attempts at finding directions, he sits down on a flight of stone stairs in dejection. In the distance a clock is heard striking twelve and suddenly a very vintage car can be seen driving up the road. It stops at the curb, the doors open and a group of very lively Parisians motion for Gil to join them. They take him to an unusual party where men have their hair slicked back with a middle part, women wear flapper dresses and there is a man possessing a striking resemblance to Cole Porter at a piano singing “Let’s Do It.” Gil finds that it’s 20’s night and he didn’t get the memo.

Gil Pender has found himself magically transported to Paris in the 1920s, a time that he romanticizes deeply. For good reason too, he meets F. Scott Fitzgerald as well as his wife Zelda; he strikes a friendship with Ernest Hemmingway and even convinces Gertrude Stein to review a draft of his novel. But most of all he falls in love, and not just with the city. The elusive Adriana (Marion Cotillard) shares Gil’s passion for the arts and she also shows interest in him. Night after night he returns to be enriched and inspired by these people but Gil soon has to learn what it means to love and be content with the time that you’re already in.

The magic of the movie can be felt far beyond the borders of the screen. When I saw the film the pleasure in the room was extraordinarily tangible between all the viewers in the audience because we all were having such a great time watching it. This movie is unbelievably funny and moreover it’s humor that works on several layers. Good comedy is accessible to most but rewards the few with obscure nuggets and tiny, nearly imperceptible moments. Midnight In Paris elevates but in a refreshing way. Taking cues from today’s style where pop culture references fall like rain, Pairs works differently in that its references are academically arcane.What’s great is that the jokes are left moist enough to make you want to know more.

Woody Allen gets a bad rap at times mainly for his stock myopic characterizations. Given his time in the industry, I feel that he has nothing to prove and I think he knows it as well. By and large he does what he wants to do and can craft a fine story out of whatever source material on hand. Recent films like Match Point and Vicki Christina Barcelona make it seem like Allen expanding his element is such a natural progression of habit. Still it’s fabulous when we get to witness a project where all the pieces come together perfectly, where there is so much artistic flexing all at once.

A week later I was at the same theater burning with anticipation for a totally different film which was different indeed. Devoid of humor or quick wit of the former, Terrence Malick’s The Tree Of Life decides instead to make bold strokes into the human psyche, divorcing itself from what many expect a film to be. The term “film” should be thought of in its base definition only. Treestrays from the standard as any viewer can expect. The story is loose, dialog is largely absent and it tangents into a cosmos-spawning light show. What do we get for the trade? Something so beautiful it’s difficult to describe.

You may have heard about The Tree Of Life recently. Mainly, I’m guessing, it was from people saying how you will either love it or hate it-there is no in between. I don’t necessarily believe that this is true. I think it’s more along the lines that there are people that understand it and those that don’t. You might have come across critics, and these are professional movie critics, that say how much they hate it. I must say this, and I apologize if this offends but all of you are dreadful at watching movies. How can you damn such an exquisite piece of art without even remarking slightly on the message it conveys? It’s not nearly a difficult movie to contemplate either. Its minimalism provides a stark philosophic canvas for ideas to flourish. It has a richness but in the case of being provocative it expects you to meet it half way.

What disappoints me the most is that these people are paid to think about movies critically and here comes a film perfectly suited to be critically thought of and it’s canned by the likes of people that should sing its praises. Jesus, you know, was killed by the people that he was born to save. I am exaggerating if only slightly. The Tree Of Life does have a very high rating among most critics and I would place a guess that even most audience members can at least tolerate it enough. I will repeat that it has less to do with how much of it is liked but how much is understood that will dictate the viewer’s opinion of the movie. This is only natural; that is why people hate math. However, when you dedicate yourself to understanding a subject, its motives and dynamics, a love of that subject grows. This is how people say they like Pop Art.

The story is largely about a rural Texas family in the 50’s where innocence still abounds and DDT showers are the norm. We are introduced to the mother (Jessica Chastain) when a postman comes to the door and solemnly delivers a letter. Her back is turned to us as she opens the parcel and because of this we cannot be full witness to the grief that erupts forth. The scene is cut to the wash of noise from airplane propellers. The Father (Brad Pitt) is on the phone. His words are all but inaudible but we know the sentiment as his eyes grow soft and his mouth turns down. Their son is dead. The following scenes show the two of them endure the pain of losing a child. Friends do their best to console the couple no matter how ungraceful it might be. “At least you have the other two” says one of the neighbors. We can see the disgust teeming in the eyes of the Mother.These are the O’Brian’s and this is our introduction to their family.

The remainder of the film traces their story across time, going from the past to the future and back again. We see grief traverse the decades as Jack, now a grown man (Sean Penn) is still struggling with the loss of his brother. We also see the birth of the cosmos, life emerge, evolve and struggle. The world is shown in all its complexity. Smoke and fire come from the earth as if struck and forged of a blacksmith. Nature, in its entire splendor is exhibited from the churn of the ocean, the directionlessness of salt flats, the sculpture of rock formations. Life begins and life ends, such is life.

The focus narrows on Jack as a young boy (Hunter McCracken) and his relationship between his domineering father and nurturing mother. He is torn knowing that he can’t find solace in both of his parents because of their dark contrast upon one another. When he or his brothers are alone with their mother we see them enjoy a full joy not expressed with Mr. O’Brian. When Jack is around his father his face is full of conflict. When asked, “Do you love your father?” he answers yes, and we believe him. But there is fear in his answer because Mr. O’Brian is heinously abusive. Which channeling Tyler Durden he commands his son to hit him while teaching him to fight. “Hit me, hit me!” he screams as he forces his fist but storms off in disappointment when Jack fails to comply. Later when one of his brothers openly defies the father, he explodes in a rush of anger sending food from the spoiled dinner like rocks expelled from a volcano.

No matter how much Jack shows his hatred for his father, he confesses the sad truth to him, “I’m more like you than her.” He’s physical and impulsive, we see him carelessly make bad decisions and he thoughtlessly hurts his brothers. Despite this connection, a distance still remains. His father’s greatest love, music, is not shared by Jack. Is this a rejection of the father’s values? We see Jack aiding his father by turning the sheet music while playing the organ. We also see, when Jack is by himself, clumsily manipulating a vinyl record. The music warbles and slows in odd patterns as Jack presses his hand to the disk. When his brother is playing the guitar, Jack paces in the yard as he glances toward the house, as if he is outside the family.

The style and presentation is the largest departure from traditional story-telling in The Tree Of Life. The script’s dialog is anemically thin, not in content but in amount. The story is told through a series of brief narrations by either Jack or Mrs. O’Brian. When there is no dialog it is conveyed by some of the most dynamic acting that I’ve seen in years. Nothing suffers from the lack of speech in Tree. When we see Jack walk down the street and he looks off toward the distance we know exactly what he is thinking, we don’t need him to say anything. His youngest brother (Laramine Eppler) is just as spectacular. The expressions that he shows toward Jack are achingly powerful. This movie is a perfect example of how one more brush stroke in a painting would ruin it.

I would like to take the time to sympathize with those that didn’t enjoy this. It is a difficult movie to watch, between its 139 minute runtime, a lack of dialog and a storyline that is spliced together in an off order. That is not the only hurtle that a viewer must cross. The film has a tendency to show scenes in quick succession for long periods of time. The cuts become almost mechanical as scenes change again and again and again. We are never allowed to focus on one moment for very long. This relentless nature takes a toll on the attention span as we become awash in sensory information.

Simply letting all of this wash over you will make for a more pleasant viewing experience.Attempting to hang on and understand each and every frame we’re presented with will bring fatigue and nothing will kill a good experience faster than this. The key to understanding The Tree Of Life is not to ascribe meaning to each and every detail, at least not at first. Like a sponge, absorb all you can and release the rest. Let the visuals rush over your consciousness until a meaning revels itself. This film has a personal significance to me and I would hope that would be different from someone else’s. I understand that this will be very difficult for some but I can honestly say that for those that persist, this film will reward like none other.

I realize that in quantity of great films, this summer hasn’t been spectacularly remarkable. It has been really good, but mainly at showing us that Christopher Nolan is not the only one that can direct relevant superhero movies. Though a summer where two films rose above and exhibited such mastery should be noted. We’ve reached the end of the season but not without one last shining example, The Rise of the Planet of the Apes. Frieda Pinto (Slumdog Millionaire) was on the Today show promoting the movie several weeks ago. I remember that she stated that this was a “thinking man’s summer movie” and it was. It came out of left field to offer something that was totally unexpected: a movie that made you think.

I love a fiery, testosterone-fueled slamfest like the next guy but all I’m asking is that we have some variety in our cinema. I understand that the reasoning behind holding back all the really good films till fall and winter is so that they won’t be forgotten during Oscar time at the top of the year. This is why I could hardly find the Gorillaz Plastic Beach on any “Best Of” lists in 2010 (released in March). When expectations are mixed up the ability to be surprised is introduced.We’ve come to expect too much of what summer movies are and too little on what they can be.Super hero movies, yes; Michael Bay blowing up…something, yes as well; a movie that totally makes you re-think you’re perception of God, definitely not. Think about it, when you see a movie that happens to be totally different than what you were expecting while still being good, doesn’t that make it awesomely classic? The simple fact of it is that not all of us want explosions on screen; sometimes we want them in our head. We want our mind’s to be blown.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Ten Story Love Song by Richard Milward: A review

My rating: 4 of 5 stars

I once wrote a short story that only had one paragraph that I brought to a reading group. It was in a rough state with very little editing, just how I wrote it at the time. I even notified the others that I intended to polish it up and add paragraphs. I was amazed how that became the focus of criticism and also how many people had trouble reading it. I was partially inspired to leave it in that condition after reading this book. Seeing it in the library with the first page beginning on the cover got me intrigued. It reminded me of You Shall Know Us By Our Velocity by Dave Eggers. I found a copy and was charged with the freshness that permeates this novel. Again I am amazed why so many people talk about the difficulties of reading one long paragraph. I find it exciting when authors challenge the rules of the English Language. When you start reading it you find that there is no problem with it in the slightest. You forget about it and get used to it, kind of like reading subtitles to a foreign film. As you read you also find a complexity that would be absent in other "rule-bound" novels, which is how seamlessly Milward can connect ideas, whether they be related or not, together without allowing himself the use of a new paragraph. Like a literary magician he uses slight of hand to change subject, tense and even point of view. Throughout the book we float in a drug fueled fantasia from person to person, situation to situation; climbing a story on the rungs of swirling prose. This work is far from elegant or graceful; the grit can get into your teeth if your not careful. We are treated to the underside of society with all its drugs and theft, but unlike the black and white world of Film Noir this one is populated with bright colors and a feverish pace that will make you sweat and gasp for air. This is comparable to Darron Aronofsky's deeply excruciating 2000 film Requiem For A Dream in that it concerns four individuals that suffer their own personal form of addiction. The main difference being is the overall tone which is a great deal lighter than Requiem. Brightness seems to shine from every page and delivers an optimism surmounting the odds that the characters are facing. Even at the climax of the book-from where the namesake comes-the scene is terrible in a conventional sense but somehow the book retains a feeling as if everything will be okay. The book contains many funny moments but skimps on the poignant ones. There are no life-changing revelations to be gleaned here. The characters do have epiphanies but they are far from profound. However the question must be begged, does one need profundity in order for a revelation to be relevant? Perhaps common sense is not inherent and whatever we learn is new and important for the individual. Despite this the story does not suffer. It was a joy to read something new and something good from someone not named Egan, Franzen, Foer or Kingsolver. Not to crack on them, their talent far exceeds mine, it's just that their names have dominated literary media for several months. Richard Milward is no rookie, Ten Storey Love Song is his second novel, but his is far from veteran status. I hope to see more from him in the coming future. Richard, please don't keep us waiting.



Sunday, April 17, 2011

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Just a few minutes ago I checked in. Not to check my comments, not even with the intent to write an new post but here I am. I was wanting to see if I could hunt down the date of a friend's birthday hoping that I hadn't missed it. But check my comments I did. On my latest post I found an anonymous post wishing that I return and write some more. I don't know what affected me more; the fact that it seemed like such a heart-felt plea or that it came from someone that I didn't know at all. It made me rethink how I've treated this place.

It's been a place where I can deposit my thoughts about the world around me. I built it so that I could talk about anything. It was about as random as I was. I mused about music, movies and strange occurrences that only I might notice. I had to look back at some of the posts to remember some of the things that inspired me to write. There are many good memories in there. But I took it for granted.

I took for granted that there were people that enjoyed reading the things that I wrote. In my defense there wasn't an indication that people read, few comments ever popped up. It was very easy to let it slide until I forgot about it completely. And for that I am sorry.

You there, anonymous. If you are reading this I am writing this for you. Sorry for letting you down. I hope you're reading this and feel good for inspiring someone. I'll do my best for keeping these posts coming on a regular basis. In the mean time just think of me as the Johnathan Franzen of Bloggers. It takes years for new material to come out but man, is it worth the wait.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Dream Archetecture

The dream has always been a mystery. It remains untouched by the measures of science. They are unpredictable; always appearing at their whim, or disappearing at the slightest shift in our sleeping bodies. They can transform without warning and, strangely enough, our unconscious may not even register the change. Whatever they may be they are ours alone. Others offer interpretation however we are the only ones that experienced what we did, and we are the only ones that can truly say what they mean to us.

What if then, could another share in our dream experience? Friends could aid, helping us find meaning in our dreams and we could do the same for them. The impossible could seem like reality in the worlds we create. We could love without end, see exotic places together, or participate in sinister games of the imagination harm free. Anything could be done as long as the bounds of the imagination are untethered.

Problems would arise, like they often do. Who would be the arbiter of these worlds? Would such a one be needed with the physical factor virtually eliminated? Or would we find that the products of the mind are more tangible than we could have ever thought? "Your dream or mine?" a maxim for that era if there ever was one brings to light of how casually fleeing reality could become. Why would you need reality when you have perfectly actualized dreams? Is not the new dream reality enough?

Most importantly, however, would be this: how do you become the architect of something so fleeting and mystifying? How does one make concrete what is not even there?
The summer movie Inception, written and directed by the superbly talented Christopher Nolan, asks many of these same questions, tantalizing the audience with a cautionary-esque tale of events so explosive it left me in sheer awe when the final credits began to roll. Most people might know the movie from the very cryptic trailers that have been seen in theaters, on the web and, most recently on TV, but that is just about it. The marketing campaign has been masterful, showing just enough as to get people wondering but giving nothing away in the process (The perfect trailer, really; take note horror movie makers.) In this slumping summer of movies, producers would have us ask, "Who is Salt?" What myself and millions of others around the globe have really been wondering is, "What is Inception!?"

Inception is a word with Latin origins meaning "take" or "seize." The movie stars Leonardo DiCaprio as Dom Cobb, a man with mysterious ties to an unknown corporation. He works as an Extractor, someone who invades the dreams of others in order to steal secrets locked away in the subconscious of his subjects. The trick is doing it without the subject even knowing that it is happening. Joseph Gordon-Levitt plays, Arthur, Cobb's right hand man and fact checker. It's his job to make sure that the dream is accurate to the subject's reality effectively continuing the illusion. The team is tight, and both actors play expertly off on another.

The movie begins with Cobb and Arthur inside the dream of corporate mogul Satio (Ken Wanatabe). They are there to be tested, if they can steal a secret without being caught and if they can do it without giving the dream-state away. The purpose of the test is to see if the team is good enough for a very advantageous assignment: inception. Satio proposes not the extraction of ideas but rather the act of implanting a notion or thought into the mind of a subject.

Inception is deemed impossible by everyone except for Cobb who claims that he has done it once. The risk is extremely high but so is the reward; too high for Cobb to pass up, and he ends up taking the job. Later, Cobb employs characters played by Michael Cane, Ellen Page and Tom Hardy for their talents. What ensues becomes just short of chaos when the characters plummet farther into a foreign consciousness, fighting off imagined foes, time, and of course, themselves.

Inception is the summer movie that I have been waiting for and I have been waiting a long time. I can't remember the first time I saw the trailer for the film but I do remember the sentiment, "Wow, this is going to be big!" With Christopher Nolan comes excitement because I know what a treat is in store for movie goers. But after watching Inception I realized that I've been waiting for this film for far longer than I have thought. This is a film has so much weight and magnitude that I knew I would love it, but I didn't know exactly how much. In simple terms, Inception has far exceeded my very high expectations.

Yes, I know how that sounds, like I'm a fanboy foaming at the mouth with excitement. But understand that this film comes from the mind and talent of, who I believe, is one of the greatest directors of our time. Christopher Nolan has been kicking cinematic tail for over a decade now beginning with the largely unknown Following (1998). The film itself, I must be honest, never captivated me when I first saw it. But I could appreciate it as a form of art; it was quirky, it was black & white, it was very unique. It was when his next film, Memento (2000), came out that Nolan really came into the spotlight. Memento was a film so good it could work as many director's masterpiece, for Nolan he was still cutting his teeth in the film industry.

The story was about Leonard Shelby, a man that experienced a violent home invasion that resulted in a brain injury for him, giving him short-term memory loss, and the death of his wife. He is searching for his wife's killer but for anyone with memory problems this would prove difficult seeing as you wouldn't be able to remember a single clue to the case. To remedy this, Shelby tattoos the facts that he has found onto his body. He also has Polaroid's of important people, places and things that he needs to keep track of. This is my car, this is my friend, this is the hotel where I stay. What makes Memento really interesting to watch is that the whole film is backwards. The very first scene of the movie is actually the last scene in the story. This juxtaposition is really confusing but the result is that you are just as lost as Leonard Shelby, effectively connecting the audience to the character in ways that lesser directors can only dream of.

I remember when I first saw Memento. I was enthralled by the tale and how it was told. Even when my friends got bored with it and left, I was still there to the end. And what an end it was. Film Noir lives again! I'm not sure if it had died to begin with, but at least it was reinvented. After that I was hooked, a true fan of Nolan. I tried to find more about him and his films. I saw his career unfold over the years never being disappointed in the least. I think the story would have ended there, him being a niche director, had it not been for a little film known as The Dark Knight (2008).

Though there is nothing little about The Dark Knight seeing as it has grossed over a billion dollars worldwide. It was not his first foray with the Caped Crusader but it was definitely the best. The Dark Knight showed the world how convincing a superhero movie could be and what a world with these masked vigilantes and their nemeses would really be like if they existed. Coming off the heels of The Dark Knight, Nolan had absolutely nothing to prove. The irony is that if Inception had been far less impressive it could conceivably discredit him entirely. The Dark Knight gave the world Christopher Nolan, Inception showed the world that he could direct.

That being said, what makes Inception a triumph? The movie is largely a genre pic, but it really proves how epic formula can be. Inception is cool as a cocktail and I describe it this way: two parts Waking Life, one part Matrix and a squeeze of heist. Shake well, serve over ice. The film combines genre so well as to camouflage the subjects entirely. It has just enough Sci-Fi as to transport the story but not enough to alarm the audience that what they're really watching is Sci-Fi. It has a perfect amount of heist as to not get in the way and just enough brooding as to not get annoying.

The characters themselves are virtual dynamos of power played by actors at the literal top of their game. Many fault a movie for having DiCaprio in it, having never forgiven him for his roles in Romeo + Juliet (1996) and Titanic (1997) . His work on The Aviator (2004), The Departed (2006) and Shutter Island (2009) have long given credence that he is an actor worthy of acclaim. Gordon-Levitt's career's also keeps getting better after the smash hit (500) Days of Summer (2009) that he co-starred in. Ellen Page rounds out the talent by being part of Hollywood's new generation of great starlets.

But even the greats like Humphrey Bogart or Katharine Hepburn would fail if the characters that they played weren't worth the ink on a script. Inception's characters are exciting to watch and even more rewarding to figure out. The relationship between Cobb and his wife Mal is as electrifying as it is toxic. It's riveting to watch the only memories of his wife and children, destructive memories, really, pervade the world that Cobb is placed in. Mal's haunting becomes ominous and you come to feel how distant she is from reality.

Inception is saturated with many symbols and metaphors which is fitting seeing that many interpret dreams with very similar tools. One of the more prominent symbols in the film is the totem; a physical object that the possessor uses to indicate if they are in a dream state or not. The totem is very valuable, so much so that its owner can't even let others hold it. If someone could know the details of the totem then they could then fool an individual into believing that they are awake when in reality they are asleep in a dream. The totem that Cobb wields is a top that when spun will fall like tops always do. But if he is in a dream the top will continue to spin unaided for as long as it is allowed. Totems become keys to reality, objects of truth. When all else is unreliable the totem can be relied upon to cement the world around you. In a sense they are the only physical objects that matters.

Deep existentialist questions are posed in Inception. Primarily, what is reality and is it subjective? Cobb and Mal have an extended shared dream experience and upon waking Mal become dissatisfied with waking life, believing that nothing is real. She later becomes a specter for Cobb and tries to convince him that you can experience all the life you desire in the realms dreams. This is a very polarizing idea because both sides could be argued very vehemently. We can have very vivid experiences inside a dream but if it isn't real then what does it matter? Is joy and pleasure the means to an end, or does truth overrule?

The score was composed by Hans Zimmer who has many credits to his name. For Inception he created a very dense score that fills the movie with an emotive and ever building sense of suspense. To his credit, Zimmer didn't craft a score that dictated the suspense but instead the action on screen and the music exist in a very healthy symbiosis. Nolan and Zimmer's talent are so well exhibited in this area that the climax of the film never seems to end. And that's a good thing. Tension builds continuously throughout the entire 148 minutes that the movie runs. Even as it comes to a close it doesn't fall and leaves you spinning as the final credits roll to the end.

Inception is a true cinematic juggernaut encompassing many forms of great. It created anticipation beforehand, it truly entertained, and even days after watching it I still can't stop thinking about it, and I can't wait to see it again. If you haven't seen it yet, you owe it to yourself to watch it. You might not like it as much as I did but I guarantee that you will enjoy it more than you thought. At the very least watch it to support good film making instead of the pathetic attempts at entertainment that we've been subjected to this summer. I predict that Inception will win big at the Academy Awards and that it will be talked about, thought about, and viewed many years to come.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Two men, one truth


I have just finished watching the movie "The Assassination of Jesse James by the Cowardly Robert Ford". I'm really not sure how I feel about it, whether I found it pleasurable or not. The acting was marvelous, though I've come to accept nothing less from Brad Pitt over the years. I liked the number of cameos strewn throughout the film: a surprising show from James Carville, an unexpected two scene appearance from the illustrious Zooey Deschanel and, my favorite, Nick Cave himself. The narration seemed like it was pulled straight from a PBS documentary, I feel Robert Duvall would have performed better. Despite that there is something that I can't put my finger on. Something elusive that kept me from becoming totally immersed in the story.

I did enjoy the depiction of human tragedy; of how fallen a character Jesse James was and, as it turned out, so was Robert Ford in the end. One man killed because he had to and the other killed because he wanted to. I'll leave it to you to decide which was which.

I wonder a hundred years from now how will people depict our heroes and villains. Will our supposed enemies be pardoned for their motives and be raised on a pedestal to be admired? As well, could our figures of renown become denigrated, transformed into a hiss and a byword for the rest of time? It is our greatest wish for our contemporaries that they produce something to their credit that only time can reveal. It is the discredit to ourselves that we act as judge without the slightest part of evidence against the station of another.